i can play all of our old songs,

look at all of our old pictures,

and sleep with my arms wrapped

tightly around your sweater.

but it won't bring you back to me, will it?

There's no blame for how our love did slowly fade
And now that it's gone it's like it wasn't there at all
And here i rest where disappointment and regret collide
Lying awake at night.

"If it is important enough to you, you will find a way. If it is not, you will find an excuse."

"and above all, watch with glittering eyes the whole world around, because the greatest secrets are always hidden in the most unlikely places"

"Someone I loved once gave me

a box full of darkness.

It took me years to understand

that this, too, was a gift."

— Mary Oliver

"I’m a romantic—a sentimental person thinks things will last—a romantic person hopes against hope that they won’t."

— F. Scott Fitzgerald

the small life

Through the Backyards

thoughts.

I loved you in the morning, our kisses deep and warm, your hair upon the pillow like a sleepy, golden storm, yes many loved before us, I know we are not new, in city and in forest they smiled like me and you.

But now it’s come to distances and both of us must try.

Your eyes are soft with sorrow...

Hey, that’s no way to say goodbye. -Leonard Cohen

"You see two people and you think they belong together, but nothing happens. The thought of losing so much control over personal happiness is unbearable. You love someone, you open yourself up to suffering, and that’s the sad truth. Maybe they’ll break your heart, maybe you’ll break their heart and never be able to look at yourself in the same way. Those are the risks. That’s the burden. Like wings, they have weight, we feel that weight on our backs, but they are a burden that lifts us. Burdens that allow us to fly." -Bones

"I think when you are young, you are hoping that this person will be the right one, the one you are going to be in love with forever but sometimes you want that so much you create something that isn’t really there." -Johnny Depp

"I think that sometimes we love people so much that we become numb to it.. because if we actually felt how much we really loved them, it would kill us."

"People are afraid of themselves, of their own reality; their feelings most of all. People talk about how great love is, but that’s bullshit. Love hurts. Feelings are disturbing. People are taught that pain is evil and dangerous. How can they deal with love if they’re afraid to feel? Pain is meant to wake us up. People try to hide their pain. But they’re wrong. Pain is something to carry, like a radio. You feel your strength in the experience of pain. It’s all in how you carry it. That’s what matters. Pain is a feeling. Your feelings are a part of you. Your own reality. If you feel ashamed of them, and hide them, you’re letting society destroy your reality. You should stand up for your right to feel your pain." -Jim Morrison

"Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them things that you’ve never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you. When something wonderful happens, you can’t wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement. They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful. There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around. You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are. The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever. Memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid it’s like being young again. Colours seem brighter and more brilliant. Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn’t exist at all. A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day’s work and always brings a smile to your face. In their presence, there’s no need for continuous conversation, but you find you’re quite content in just having them nearby. Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is so special to you. You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do. Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon. You open your heart knowing that there’s a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible. You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that’s so real it scares you. You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end. Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life." -Bob Marley

"Love isn't an act. It's a whole life. It's staying with her now because she needs you; it's knowing you and she will still care about each other when sex and daydreams, fights and futures- when all that's on the shelf and done with. Love-why, I'll tell you what love is: it's you at 75 and her at 71, each of you listening for the other's step in the next room, each afraid that a sudden silence, a sudden cry, could mean a lifetime's talk is over." -Brian Moore

"Does he kiss your eyelids in the morning when you start to raise your head? And does he sing to you incessantly from the space between your bed and wall? Does he walk around all day at school with his feet inside your shoes, looking down every few steps to pretend he walks with you? Oh, does he know that place below your neck that is your favorite to be touched? And does he cry through broken sentences like, ‘I love you far too much’? " -Bright Eyes

Love you all the time
Even though you're not mine
Love you all the time
Dream I'm in the saltwater

Timing's gone all bad
Broken faith
And a broken way
You couldn't lose me
If you tried
'Cos I'll be rollin'
To your side, baby

Love you all the time
Even though you're not mine
Love you all the time
Broken faith
And a broken way

You couldn't lose me
If you tried

Beach House

heartbreak at its best.

waking up is the worst, because that's when you realize it wasn't just a bad dream- it really happened.

"I’m also just a girl, standing in front of a boy, asking him to love her." -Notting Hill

Love has nothing to do with what you are expecting to get — only what you are expecting to give — which is everything. What you will receive in return varies. But it really has no connection with what you give. You give because you love and cannot help giving." -Katherine Hepburn

"You’ll do it, despite rejection and the worst odds. And it will be better than anything else you can imagine. If you’re going to try, go all the way. There is no other feeling like that. You will be alone with the gods, and the nights will flame with fire. You will ride life straight to perfect laughter. It’s the only good fight there is." -Bukowski

" You can’t stop loving or wanting to love because when its right, it’s the best thing in the world. When you’re in a relationship and it’s good, even if nothing else in your life is right, you feel like your whole world is complete." -Keith Sweat

yyesnomaybeso

My baby is gone.

Hideaway, well they’ll seat us in the sun,
By the way, know you’ve always been the one.
You’ll ask your reasons why,
What once was yours is mine,
My baby’s gone.

Right away, gonna take me from my man,
By the way, no they’ll never understand,
We’ll have a bit of fun,
watching everyone,
Pass us by.

You’ll ask your reason why,
What once was yours is mine,
My baby’s gone.

Hideaway, well they’ll seat us in the sun,
By the way, know you’ve always been the one,
You’ll ask your reasons why,
What once was yours is mine,
My baby’s gone.

Right away, gonna take me from my man,
By the way, no they’ll never understand,
We’ll have a bit of fun,
Watching everyone,
Pass us by

You’ll ask your reason why,
My baby is gone.

love.

i've come to realize that sometimes, doing the right thing... isn't doing the right thing. Follow your heart- even if it breaks in the end, at least you know you gave it your all.

"It’s not the person you are with but the person you become when you are with that person. Certain people bring out your best self. That’s who you need to find. A person who brings out your best self."

"You know that feeling of waiting for someone. I mean really waiting for someone - standing in front of a restaurant in the cold and having hundreds of people pass you on the sidewalk. And you don’t want to do anything else, because you’re afraid you might miss something - that somehow if you don’t spot him right away, he’ll walk right by. So you stand there and you don’t do anything except think about how you’re standing there. Occasionally you might look at your watch, or check your cell phone to see if it’s accidentally on silent, even though you already checked for that a minute ago. That’s what this is starting to feel like."

"I had always been in love with him. I counted the lashes of each closed eye. He had been my almost, my might have been, and I did not want to leave him." -The Lovely Bones

"In three words I can sum up everything I’ve learned about life: it goes on."

— Robert Frost

"It's amazing, some people, they just say these small little things, one sentence and it changes the way you feel about them in an instant. Small little words that can hurt you so much or make you fall deeply in love forever. It changes everything, nothing between you is ever really the same again, even if they don't know it."

"You know that place between sleeping and awake, that place where you can still remember dreaming? That’s where I’ll always think of you."

— J.M. Barrie

"I like to see people reunited, I like to see people run to each other, I like the kissing and the crying, I like the impatience, the stories that the mouth can’t tell fast enough, the ears that aren’t big enough, the eyes that can’t take in all of the change, I like the hugging, the bringing together, the end of missing someone."

— Jonathan Safran

"If we weren’t meant to give things another try, our paths and thoughts would not keep crossing, and we would not keep tripping over our feelings for each other."

"You never lose by loving. You always lose by holding back."

— Barbara De Angelis

the small life, for stars will rise again

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you make me want to feel, the things i've never felt before.

The Sounds

one of my favorite bands of all time... :)

iknowwhatyouworelastseason

Don't waste your youth growing up...